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But if your heart's not in it, for real.
Please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
If love's already gone,
Its not fair to lead me on.
Cause, i would give the whole world, for you.
Anything you'd ask of me, i'll do.
But i wont ask you to say,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
Baby, a simply messgae like uggh you disgust me isnt enough to bring me down.
Perhaps you would like to try alittle harder?
But point noted, digusting i am.
But its my problem, you can choose not to come here anyway.
You pathethic loser.
I was so engrossed in this romance book that i was reading, and i was fuming mad to realise that the last few pages of the book were gone.
And i was just left hanging there, feeling so helpless and pissed.
The AJ library does not have another copy of that book, and i sacrificed my lunch break to get a trip to the AMK library in hopes to find the book there.
No, the library does not have that book.
Sembawang has it.
So i called Harry, to ask his friend if she could drop by and help me borrow it.
I was so touched when i found out that, Harry despite feeling unwell today,
took the trip down all the way there just to get the book for me.
Tell me, where can you find such a darling?
Toylyn's gone.
I seriously think that i should stop acting like some crazy woman, shaking my friends really hard on the shoulders when i'm feeling moomoo.
All of them will just run away one day!
On a happier note,
i would like to wish,
Reyes a very extremely happy birthday!
Yes sweetie, i love you and stay happy yah!
Gone were those days;
The day's been so long, i've walked on for hours non-stop.
I'm so in love with this girl called toylyn.
And i cant believe we've progressed so far that we held hands today.
Awww, it was so sweet.
Anyhow, she made me cry for her that day by doing a really bad thing that hurt me so badly.
Do i sound stupid?
Maybe i do, sorry i'm just so deeply in love. :D
Haha, pardon me.
You know sometimes, i just cant help but to wonder if we're sweeter or you're sweeter.
Everything can be a facade,
and things dont usually turn out how they seem to be.
I dont know, i just hate you to the core.
You make me feel irksome all inside.
You know what baby?
I miss your long hair, rahh!
I know this entry's so random,
its just a medium for me to type rubbish.
You know sometimes, the blog may be a facade too.
Some people just like to blog it down so beautifully but who knows.
Yeahh, who knows who's Harry?
Maybe he doesnt even exist.
But i know my love for him does. :)
Everything's just a facade.
Love's too.
Okay, i cried like mad watching The Way Home.
You know that Korean show?
The one with the old grandma and the little boy?
It was so sad that i couldnt help bursting into tears.
And it was so embarrassing, especially in front of Harry. Gawwdd
I'm discriminating, yes.
Guys are such superficial shit, they judge girls based on their looks.
We have like so much more substance inside.
Its like, there are so many lesbians ard because of these horny jerks.
Yes, i know i'm ugly.
But you dont have to spell it our in my face.
I realised that perhaps every single person has a certain unique charm in them that makes it possible for someone out there in the world to fall for them.
No matter how ugly, or how fat they are, or how bad and evil a person they are.
Now i know why the ugliest girls can get the most charming guy, and vice versa.
I used to wonder if Harry was blind,
perhaps now i've understood it altogether.
I've moved on, from everything.
:) From the stupid morning juices, toasts and eggs;
From the rush hour every evening, dinner and the newspapers.
From the times when you said you didnt want to talk.
I've moved on.
I've loved joleen jieming and wanru!
Sometimes it really feels like i was born to love them.
And we were born to be the best of friends.
I hate JC life,
it's depriving me of quality time spent with them.
Raaahh.
I heard my hockey coach's coming back next week.
And i was told to be prepared for terrible trainings ahead.
Plus, i guess i'll become even darker after long hours after the scorching sun.
I've signed up for Malay classes in AJ!
Or perhaps, i should sign up for Indian classes if they were made available.
Haha, get it?
I've yet to get my by midyear papers,
and i aint anticipating them either.
Rachel / Rae
24th nov 1989
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
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